So now that I have learned that formatting works if I copy/paste from Word, my posts will no longer shapeless lumps. A small victory in the grand scheme of things.
Today was painful. It cut me deep to the core because I don’t know what to do with my future. If any other person, someone who I didn’t respect as much as I respect him, were to say what he did, I would not have cared. But I lost it. And am still not fully functional.
The power of words is astonishing. Sometimes more so than how one acts. All I can do is take what I have learned from this situation and learn from it and become a better person.
Slowly, word by word, writing this is helping me. It’s almost as therapeutic as playing the violin; which leads me to wonder, is that the reason why I keep on playing the violin? Emotional catharsis? I have yet to come up with an answer for that but will know in the future. At least I hope so.
I feel like something is wrong with me doing nothing but waiting. Waiting for AP tests to be over so I can enjoy the last few months of school. Waiting for summer to return back to skating, less stress, and a trip to Europe. Waiting for the next year of school so I can do all the crazy things that senior year brings. Waiting for college because it’s supposed to be the best time of your life. Waiting for almost every stage of life. When will I not be waiting?
So, as I conclude this seemingly random blog post, I must say that I have to work on better person. A lot. Hopefully this will all work out in the end.
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